August 7th, 2018
You almost gave in today. You almost gave up. The stress and frustrations finally got to the point where quitting was an option. But you didn’t. You kept going and kept fighting. And most importantly, you kept writing.
This is nothing like you thought it would be. It’s hard work and time consuming. It’s thought provoking and inspiring. It’s a real job. You don’t have time. You have a job, and responsibilities, and friends, and family. You can’t keep doing this.
Every time you think those thoughts just remember today. Today you hot a wall and broke through. You saw another wall and kept pushing forward. There will always be a wall, something you can’t avoid, something you don’t think you will overcome. Look behind you. Every single one of the walls that you have passed was an obstacle you never thought you would overcome, and you did.
You fought to get where you are now and to give it up is an insult to me, your past self, and you, my future self. If you didn’t want to do this, you would have never started. You love this, and you hate it. Just like the rest of you there are good and bad parts, but the important thing is that you feel something when you write. Writing is no good without emotions, good or bad. Even the days you hate writing, your anger and hurt and frustration will paint a vivid picture.
If you ever get to a day where you pick up a pen, or sit in front of a laptop and start writing and you feel nothing, then it is time to quit. You will never write anything good or anything important like that. If you can’t feel anything then neither will your readers.
Find things that inspire you, or frighten you. You aren’t the only one and people will want to read that. Think about why you read your last book, what kept you reading. Think about what you wish you would see in a bookstore. And then think about everything you know that went into every one of the books that you overlooked.
It’s crazy that people sit and write for months and years to write a book that you will never read. All the joy and tears that are wasted on you. They still wrote the book. Everyone will not like everything you write and that is ok. You’re not writing for them. You’re writing for the ones that are reading your book.
First and foremost, write. Write often, write badly, just write. The rest will come when it needs to. Just remember how much you love writing. And how much you hate it. Then pick up a pen and let your emotions paint the page.